No Lies

personal blog.
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01 March
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— For you.

Hi.

Sorry, pero kailangan ko lang ilabas yung nararamdaman ako.


First of all, I’m sorry. I’m sorry kung napagod ka na sakin.
Alam ko ako lagi yung dahilan, ako lagi yung nagsisimula ng mga away natin. I’m sorry. Sorry kung napaka moody kong tao.
Sorry kung nagagalit ako nang dahil sa maliliit na bagay lang.
Sorry. Ako kasi yung tipo ng tao na tinitignan even
the smallest detail na makikita. Sorry. Sorry kung ganun ako.

Sorry kung nasira ko yung trust mo sakin. I didn’t mean to.
Oo, nagkita kami. Oo nagusap kami. Oo nakasama ko siya.
Pero hindi naman nagbago yung feelings ko sayo…
Hindi naman ako nagkagusto sa kanya kagaya ng pagkagusto ko sayo..
In the end, I still chose YOU.
Mahal kita Aj. Mahal kita. At ikaw lang yung lalakeng minahal ko ng ganito..
Sana maisip mo yun. Oo alam ko nagkamali ako. Pinagsisisihan ko yun.
Lahat. Lahat ng nagawa ko. Pinagsisisihan ko na nagsinungaling ako..
I’m sorry. Sorry.

Alam ko wala nang magagawa sorry ko ngayon para maibalik pa yung
trust. Okay lang. Tanggap ko na….

So..

I finally decided.. to let go. Ang sakit na kasi.
Kahit sinasabi mong di mo ako iiwan.
The fact na gusto mo ng time.. time na wala ako sa tabi mo..
Masakit yun Aj…
Kung para sayo simple yang hinihingi mo,
simple yang miss factor na sinasabi mo,
sakin bigdeal yun. Big thing yun Aj.
Sana intindihin mo rin yung nararamdaman ko.

Sanay ako na ikaw lang. Sanay ako na ikaw ang kasama ko..
pero tatanggalin mo yun sakin eh..masakit.

I’m sorry kung clingy ako.
Sorry kung controlling ako..
Pero, mahal kita eh. Mahal kita!
At dun ako masaya eh, kapag kasama ka.
Kapag kasama kita lagi.

Pero hindi mo naiintindihan yun eh.
Sayo siguro, madaling gawin yun.. pero sakin
HINDI AJ. HINDI..

Pero this time, I realized. Maybe you’re right.
Maybe this is the best thing to do.

Alam ko sakal na sakal ka na sakin.
The fact na gusto kong lumayo ka sa mga kaibigan mo
at iwan mo sila para sakin.. alam ko sobrang big deal yun sayo..

Sana, naisip mo din diba.. ginawa ko rin yan para sayo..
Pero hindi mo nakita yun eh.
I did everything for you.
Ang nakikita mo lang eh yung pagkakamali ko.
Pagkakamali na nagawa ko..
At pinagsisisihan ko na nga yun diba..
Pero kung hindi ka parin makamove on nang dahil dun..

I think letting “us” go.. is the best thing to do..

I actually don’t want to break up with you..
Cause I want to prove the word na “forever”…
Na nageexist yun.. Guess everyone’s right.
There’s no such thing as forever…

Akala ko talaga tayo na hanggang huli..
We even planned our future together..

Pero sobrang daming bagay ang humahadlang satin eh.
Hindi mo ba napapansin yun?

Ang daming may ayaw satin.. friends mo, friends ko..
sinasabing tama na.. family mo, ayaw sakin.. family ko, ganun din.

Hindi natin matanggap na hindi talaga tayo para sa isa’t isa..
Kasi natatakot tayo.. We’re afraid to end up alone..

Pero, I’m not afraid Aj. I’m not.
Kaya kong mag-isa. All my life.. I’ve been alone.
Nabuhay ako noon ng wala ka, siguro naman diba mabubuhay din
ako ngayon ng wala ka.. yun nga lang.. iba na. magiiba na buhay ko.


I’m letting go because I’m hurt.
Susubukan kong lumayo sayo this whole week..
At kung kakayanin ko, susubukan ko lumayo sayo for a month..
Hanggang sa tuluyan na akong maging okay…

Hindi kita kakalimutan.
Gaya nga ng sabi ko.. I will always love you.

Pero sometimes, pag mahal mo talaga ang isang tao,
you have to let go eh. Kahit masakit.

And nasasaktan na din kasi natin ng sobra ang isa’t isa..
Hindi na okay kung magsasama pa tayo..

Same thing diba? Nagkakasakitan tayo kung magkasama tayo..
Masakit din kung magkalayo tayo..
Pero I think, much better kung magkalayo nalang..
Ganun din naman yung pain eh. Mas masakit pero mas tama.

What made me do this, was the things you said to me.
You were right eh. Nakakapagod na. Pagod ka ng habulin ako.
Pagod na din akong maghabol ngayon sayo.

Yesterday, was the first time I kneeled in front of a guy.
It’s the first time I cried so much that I can’t even breathe.
It’s the first time I was the one who was begging someone
not to leave…But that would be the first.. and the last time.

Yes. I trust you. But, I can’t take it anymore.
What you want is too much.

You want us to still talk, but you want the ‘miss factor’ thing..
Pano magwowork yun?

Sabihin mo na, na hindi ko naiintindihan…
Fine.

Pero, I really can’t. 

And this time, I have to do this..

I’m letting you go. I’m setting you free.
I’m letting you do what you want.

Cause it’s the best for us.

I hope someday, the girl you meet, won’t do what I did.
Won’t cause you pain, won’t let you cry because of her..
I hope she’ll be so much better than me. :)

I know letting you go is a mistake… and I’ll regret it FOREVER.
But sometimes, some of it, is the right and best thing to do.

I love you. And I always will.

http://jaysondejesus75.wordpress.com/2013/11/09/for-the-girl-i-love/

^ For the last time.. I want you to read everything you said to me before… It hurts so much. So please.. just delete all of those after reading it.. please… So I won’t try to search for it and read it again and again..

And I forgot.. I’ll give back everything you gave to me..

So I can easily… move on..

The letters, the flowers.. Shirts, and other stuffs.

Some nga lang hindi ko na mababalik.

Like yung cupcakes.. Pero if you want.. I’ll buy nalang.

Just tell me where you bought it. And I’ll give it back to you.

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— 03 April
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FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! A decent picture with them!(Excuse my face, I don’t really care if I look like shit here or what hahahahahahaha)I miss you Ian and Brian. =(((((I still can’t believe the workshops were over. It was a dream come true.Seeing you dance and learn from you guys was truly an amazing experience! I will always love you Ian, and, especially you BRIAN PUSPOS! You’ll always be my inspiration! I LOVE YOU SO SO SO SO MUCH!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ Til’ next time! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!#PusWood #ImforeveraPUSPOSAUR :”“”“”“”“”“>
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— 28 March
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wstedscrewedlife asked : waah im sooo jelly !! swerte mo nayakap mo si brian :D u deserve it naman :))

thank you! yup! sobrang lucky talaga :”“”“”“”“”“”>

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— 27 March
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MARCH 22-24 2013 PUSWOOD PH 2013
 
Isa pang sublime moment sa buhay ko! Hahahaha! Eto yung si Ian naman yung dapat na i-huhug ko, pero si Brian parang ayaw akong bitawan!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! KINIKILIG AKO!!!! :”“”> Ramdam na ramdam ko yun eh!!! Kasi ang tagal niya pang nakayakap sakin tapos, basta… yun na yun. Ang hirap ikwento eh. Hahahahahahah! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Loveyou Brian!! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Sobrang miss nakita. Sobra. Hihintayin ko talaga yung part2 promise! Kailangan sa part2 malakas na din ako. Para makasabay na ko sayo. Hihihihihi :”“”“”>
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— 27 March
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MARCH 22-24 2013 PUSWOOD PH 2013
TONIGHT WAS THE BEST NIGHT OF MY LIFE!!! I WILL NEVER FORGET THIS NIGHT!! THE NIGHT WHEN BRIAN HUGGED ME TWICE!! AND SAID HI TO ME AT THE PARTY (FYI: NUNG NAPATINGIN SIYA SAKIN, NAKILALA NIYA AKO SABAY WAVE AT NAGHI SIYA SAKIN!!! &*(&*#%#$%@%$#^%$^ LAAAANGGG!!!! YUNG FEELING NA SIYA YUNG NAUNA!! SIYA YUNG NAKAPANSIN SAYO! HINDI MO SIYA TINAWAG O KUNG ANO PERO NUNG NAGKATINGINAN KAYO SA ISA’T ISA!! NAKILALA KA NIYA!! OMG LAAANG!!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ ANG DAMING NAGPAPICTURE AT NAGPASIGN SA KANYA PERO NAALALA NIYA AKO!!! ♥ ♥ ♥) 
Sobrang saya ko!! Sobra!!! Sobrang worth it lahat ng gastos, lahat ng pagod, makita ko nga lang siya kahit mula sa malayo sobrang okay na eh. Pero yung ma-HUG mo siya, TAWAGIN KA, MAGWAVE AT MAGHI SAYO DAHIL NAKIKILALA KA NIYA? SOBRANG SHIT LANG!!!! DI KO MAPIGILANG UMIYAK. GRABE. I FEEL LIKE MY LIFE IS FINALLY COMPLETE. SOBRANG SAYA KO LANG TALAGA. SOBRA!!!!!!!! Yung dati pinapanood mo lang siya sa tv, sa youtube tapos todo sigaw ka na kaagad kasi sobrang galing niya, tapos ngayon sa harapan mo na mismo sumayaw at lalong mas sumigaw ka kasi mas sobrang galing siya sa personal. Yung dati iniimagine mo na sana kilala ka niya at makilala ka niya, pero ngayon, ano!!! KILALA KA NA NGA NIYA!!! :”“”“> Sobrang kilig at saya! I can’t explain what I feel. Sobrang di ko maexpress into words. Kasi sobrang…ugggh.. Hindi ko alam. I feel like I can die na nga eh. Joke. knock on wood. Siyempre hindi pwede kasi may PART2 PA ANG PUSWOOD! HAHAHA! *SPOILERLANGANGPEG*I STILL CAN’T FORGET THE WAY HE HUGGED ME. HE HUGGED ME TIGHT, IT WAS SO TIGHT AND THEN HE LIFTED ME UP. DAAAAMNNN! :”“”> THAT MOMENT, WAS THE BEST MOMENT IN MY LIFE. I WILL NEVER EVER FORGET THAT. ♥ ♥ ♥THE WAY HE LOOKED AND STARED AT ME, SHIT! ♥ ♥ THE WAY HE SMILED AT ME. UGGGH! I FELT SO HIGH. I FELT LIKE I’M ON WEEDS! LOL JOKE. IT FELT SO MAGICAL AND SHIT. IDK. I CAN’T EXPLAIN IT. UGGHHH ♥ ♥ ♥ THANK YOU LORD FOR GIVING ME THIS OPPORTUNITY. :) I KNOW OTHERS WILL THINK THAT I AM OVERREACTING BUT, I DON’T REALLY CARE. AS LONG AS THIS MAKES ME HAPPY. AND DUH, THIS IS BRIAN PUSPOS! PEOPLE! HAHAHAHA! AND LASTLY, THANK YOU SO MUCH BRIAN FOR INSPIRING ME. YOU KNOW YOU TAUGHT ME A LOT. NOT ONLY ABOUT DANCE BUT ALSO ABOUT LOVE AND LIFE. I WAS SO LUCKY I HAD THE CHANCE TO SEE YOU.I’M LUCKY I HAD THE CHANCE TO LEARN FROM YOU.I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BRIAN! I LOVE YOU DIN IAN. PERO MAS MAHAL KO SI BRIAN!! ♥ ♥ ♥ I LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH BRIAN!!!!!!!!!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥OKAY. AYOKO NA. MASYADO AKONG MASAYA.ANG DAMI KONG GUSTONG SABIHIN.PERO, TAMA NA. HAHAHA. KASI OA NA DAW EH. SORRY HA. KASALANAN KO BA NA SOBRANG MAHAL KO SI BRIAN PUSPOS? =))KBYE
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26 February
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— TIME OF MY LIFE

EHMMEEERGHEEED. Sobrang saya ko ngayong araw na to! :>

So, kanina nagpunta kami sa A.Venue Mall para magbayad dun sa puswood workshop!!!! Shet. Ilang weeks nalang ang iintayin ko at dream come true na bitheezzz!!! Makikita ko na si Puspos!!!! :”> Sheeeet im so exciteeeeeeeeeeeed k hahahahaha

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24 February
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fumbledheart:

So, I said I am going to fill this with good memories….

Its the 2nd month of the year, and a lot of things already happened. Good and bad. Well, I don’t know. Good things are happening, but I don’t why I only see the bad things? Am I really that pessimistic? Why do I keep on focusing on the negative things around me? I just… ugh.

But, yeah. I hope I can still fill this with good memories. And I will. I will.

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24 February
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fumbledheart:

So, I said I am going to fill this with good memories….

Its the 2nd month of the year, and a lot of things already happened. Good and bad. Well, I don’t know. Good things are happening, but I don’t know why I only see the bad things? I can’t stop noticing it. Am I really that pessimistic? Why do I keep on focusing on the negative things around me? I just… ugh.

But, yeah. I hope I can still fill this with good memories. And I will. I will.

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24 February
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So, I said I am going to fill this with good memories….

Its the 2nd month of the year, and a lot of things already happened. Good and bad. Well, I don’t know. Good things are happening, but I don’t why I only see the bad things? I can’t stop noticing it. Am I really that pessimistic? Why do I keep on focusing on the negative things around me? I just… ugh.

But, yeah. I hope I can still fill this with good memories. And I will. I will.

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03 January
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— Jan. 3, 2013

I spent this day with my college friends. Nagkita-kita kami kasi mageenroll na kami for third term. Sayang nga lang at hindi kami kumpleto. Sina Abby, na nakahandbag kanina (hahahah first time namin siyang nakitang gumamit non), si Joana na bagong gupit (mas nagmukha siyang bata with matching backpack pa niya, at si Rhea na super fashionista today with her flowery pants, ang mga nakasama ko. HAHAHAH. After mag enroll kumain kami sa MCDO. Ngayon nalang kami ulit kumain dun since nung magbakasyon. Namiss lang namin ng sobra. Hahaha. After kumain, umuwi na si Abby kasi pupunta pa daw sila sa Lola niya. So naiwan kami ni Joana at Rhea. Naisipan naming gumala at mag-moa nalang at manood ng movie. At yun, SOSSYPROBLEMS nga ang pinanood namin. Hahaha. Benta naman. Kaya lang super oa lang talaga at arte. Ewan ko kung in real life ganon talaga ang mga “conyo’s” nga na tinatawag. Hahaha. Ayun. Third day of the year, at super naging masaya. Sana sa mga susunod na araw mas maging masaya pa. ;)